My Novel of Hope, Love, Grief, and Hardships. . .

Hello all,

I started writing a story about Romance, grief, and the obstacles faced by a woman named Natalina.  I love to write short stories and my plan is to keep going with this story- as I have 5 pages written and I have attached a link below for you to read it and to give me some feedback on what you think.  One of my friends, tells me that I should keep going with the plot and to not leave her hanging.  I have been struggling with motivating myself to get going with it and I am still deciding what I want the characters to do and what direction to go in.  But take a look at my preview and let me know what you think! I accept constructive criticism or suggestions as well.  Hope you enjoy!

Thank you!!!!


Story 487

Tragedy (A poem)

Where is God when tragedy strikes?!


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Just wait till it happens to you. . .

Then you will know how it feels to be livin’ on after a loved ones gone.

Sure she’s got her favorite pair of slippers and her dog. . .

She even has her Sunshine baby right next to her.

But nothing can surmount to this unbearable pain she feels inside, like a piece of her left.

or beyond words, a piece of her died that day along with Her

when her Angel baby was called to her eternal reward.

She has lost so much sleep. . .deprived of the joy she should have felt

by holding her daughter in her arms but somehow God

chose to take her and in this grueling and insufferable matter her body has changed in 

several ways from her stretch marks to losing hair . . .

How will she explain this to her son that she is a bereaved mother of two?

And deep inside she knows she wouldn’t wish this upon anyone.

But she can’t help but feel anger towards God and transpire a million fires in her heart

and ask,

“Why me?”

At the hospital she was listening to “700 Houses” by Susan Tedeschi when she found out.  

She kept replaying the line where she sang, “let’s pick up the pieces from tragedy.  You

and I must come to terms with reality.”

But it’s plain to see there’s no heading back, no yesterday or the day before.

Just one inexplicably, unbearable tragedy.

Somehow she knows she will have to go on and keep living her life despite that there is

still something missing and forever it will remain that way until she can be with Her

again. . .

It is hard not to mourn the loss.

The life that should’ve been.

The hopes and dreams you had for her.

All diminished and gone.

Just a few photographs. . .

And a picture of her small feet with your hands forming a heart around them.

And another of you kissing Her.

There is an emptiness that lingers your soul.

Even though She knew nothing but the surrounding love

You know in your heart that you could never go back to the woman you once were.

And when she goes on to bear other children, she is not sure if she should feel joy or

grief because she knows in her heart that she loves them both equally but how can she

feel excited the next time around but not feel grief at what she missed out on.

The loss of a possibility of what might’ve been.

It’s true you can’t feel both joy and grief at the same time.

But in her heart she’s afraid of feeling that bond with another because she is afraid of

losing the only piece left of her daughter, that pain she gave her mother when she could

not stay, but Indeed she remains a woman changed.

Not able to go back to who she once was.

Spaghetti alla Chitarra

Che cosa sono gli spaghetti alla chitarra?!

Questa ricetta tiene un posto speciale nel mio cuore.

Spaghetti alla chitarra” noto anche come “Maccheroni alla chitarra.”  È un piatto che provenire la regione Abruzzo dove mia nonna è nato e cresciuto.  Il nome deriva dalla cosiddetta “intagli,” che rappresenta il tipico telaio rettangolare in legno che dà origine ai tipici spaghetti a sezione quadrata.

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farina 0 400 g

Uova medie 4

Ricetta per 4 persone:

Preparate gli spaghetti a sezione quadrata unendo 400 grammi di farina di grano duro e 4 uova biologiche.  Se utilizzate spaghetti già preparati, gli ingredienti per il condimento destinato a quattro persone, comprende:

  • 6 cl di olio extravergine d’olia
  • 100 grammi di polpa di vitello
  • 50 grammi di polpa di maiale
  • 50 grammi di castrato
  • 5 cl di vino rosso
  • 400 grammi di salsa di pomodoro
  • 60 grammi di pecorino grattuggiato
  • 1 peperoncino secco
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  • 1 cipolla


  • 6 cl of extra virgin olive oil
  • 100 grams of lean veal
  • 50 grams of lean pork
  • 50 grams of mutton
  • 5 cl of red wine
  • 400 grams of tomato sauce
  • 60 grams of grated pecorino cheese
  • 1 dry chili pepper
  • salt
  • 1 onion

Le Istruzioni

To prepare Spaghetti alla chitarra, you will begin by sifting the flour on a work surface.  Then you will begin making the shape of a fountain and inside the hollow break the eggs and whip with a fork.  First and foremost, you will continue kneading by hand.  You will do that for about 10-15 minutes when the mixture becomes smooth.  After, form a loaf, flatten only slightly and wrap in a plastic wrap.  You can let the pasta sit in a cool place for at least an hour.

Next, grab a guitar (the wooden tool to give dough the size) and roll it out with a rolling pin (or you can wrap it in foil so that it’s not dry) in a sheet not too thin about 5 mm giving it a rectangular form to lay it on the guitar-like tool.  You can roll the dough on a rolling pin and unroll it on the guitar so that it fits on the instrument wires.

Afterwards, you can pass a small rolling pin used for this kind of pasta or any common rolling pin is fine to roll over the entire length of the sheet putting pressure for the dough that you will cut off in a single pass.  Then proceed in the same way for all the sheets of dough so that you get Spaghetti alla chitarra.  As soon as you get that. place them on the pasta holder or distribute them on a well floured pastry board to dry a little while.  Finally, our Maccheroni alla chitarra is ready to be cooked, seasoned and served!!

Per preparare gli spaghetti alla chitarra, inizierete setacciando la farina su un piano di lavoro.  Quindi comincerete a fare la forma di una fontana e all’interno della conca rompete le uova e sbattere con una forchetta.  Innanzitutto, continuerai a impastare a mano.  Lo farai per 10-15 minuti fino ad ottenere un impasto liscio.  Dopo, formare una pagnotta, schiacciatelo leggermente e avvolgetelo nella pellicola trasparente.  Potete lasciar riposare la pasta fresca fuori dal frigo, in un luogo fresco e asciutto per almeno 1 ora.  

Quindi afferrare una chitarra (l’attrezzo di legno per dare la pasta alle dimensioni) e avvolgerlo con il mattarello (il resto potete avvolgerlo in pellicola in attesa di stenderlo, in modo che non si secchi) in una sfoglia non troppo sottile di circa 5 mm.  possibilmente dando una forma rettangolare in modo da adagiarla più facilmente sulla chitarra.  Potete arrotolare la sfoglia sul mattarello e srotolarla sulla chitarra in modo che aderisca bene sui fili dello strumento.

Passate un piccolo matterellino usato per questo formato di pasta o un mattarello comune su tutta la lunghezza della sfoglia, facendo una forte pressione in modo deciso, perchè la sfoglia si recida in un’unica passata.  Procedete nello stesso identico modo per tutte le sfoglie di pasta, e a mano a mano che ricaverete i maccheroni alla chitarra, disponeteli sull’apposito stendipasta.  Procedete nello stesso identico modo per tutte le sfoglie di pasta, e a mano a mano che ricaverete i maccheroni alla chitarra.  Disponeteli sull’apposito stendipasta, oppure distribuiteli ben aperti su di una spianatoia infarinata per farli asciugare un po’. Finalmente, I vostri maccheroni alla chitarra sono pronti per essere cotti, conditi e serviti!








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I wrote this poem a while ago during my Senior year of high school that I would like to share with you all:


Trying to light the fire before us but it won’t light, it won’t light. Oh well that may be an epiphany of my life. In spite of what you said I can’t decided what I want. It’s funny how people change our views. They turn our hearts icy cold with fear. First their warm, fuzzy and their dear. But shattered on the floor you left me here. Darkness has seen me plenty of times. It knows me inside out among the lot, it could pick me out in a crowd. I’ve seen the rays of sunshine pecking out behind the clouds. I just haven’t seen it in awhile not since that July.

Don’t give up hope because you’re home. You’ve made it this far. And soon your broken heart won’t be for sale and you won’t be so vulnerable. Just writing down what comes to mind and I don’t care the truth is fine. You can say what you think but it won’t change my mind anytime soon.

They’ll ignore you like you’re just not there, speak into the air… not at your face. They are the ones to build a wall against. Don’t let them in. Don’t let them see the real you, they might think they know but it’s all misunderstood. It’s all behind-the-scenes they don’t have a clue.

Is There a Problem With Entitlement in My Generation? (From a Millennial)

 So we often struggle to really know what someone means when they say “Entitlement.”

Many people define “Entitlement” in different ways.  “Entitlement is something that you have a right to do or have, or the right for you to demand of others,” so says Cambridge University.

The first thing that comes to my mind when I think of the word is this:

Do we have the prerogative as human beings to demand things at gunpoint?  

Or should our government be able to- while shoving an agenda down your throat- demand things at point of gun?

While many millennials claim that government programs are good they often are too lazy to do more research and they have a lack thereof real political issues and how they have an impact on our society.  But what I am more flabbergasted at is the fact that these are the same people that are incapable of asking questions outside of the box.  Instead of always coloring in between the lines, why not do something crazy, go out of the box?  

Yes, the Affordable Care Act may have helped a lot of people.  Well as you might not have known at the time the Senate had 60 Democrats so it passed by a 60-39 vote. . . But who benefited from this?  Who is paying more because of this unilateral decision passed by congress?  Do middle class citizens get better coverage or is it just the unemployed that milk the system?

In a New York Times article written by Nicholas Kristof, he points out some of the troubling aspects of this when stating, ““America’s safety net can sometimes entangle people in soul-crushing dependency. Our poverty programs do rescue many people, but other times they backfire.”  He then explains, “Antipoverty programs also discourage marriage: In a means-tested program like S.S.I., a woman raising a child may receive a bigger check if she refrains from marrying that hard-working guy she likes. Yet marriage is one of the best forces to blunt poverty. In married couple households only one child in 10 grows up in poverty, while almost half do in single-mother households.  He goes on to say, “Most wrenching of all are the parents who think it’s best if a child stays illiterate, because then the family may be able to claim a disability check each month.”

As I will say ask and would ask anyone, is relying on Uncle Sam suppose to be a good thing?

Does government fix every issue?

What happens when our sustenance depends on the government?

Have we tried this before? If so, how does it end up, hurting society or helping?

And are these beneficial or detrimental effects, long-term or short-term?

Well, I leave it up to you to think about those questions and what you think.

But first lets do some simple math. 10 cents is the equivalent to 10 cents meaning that in order to make a dollar you have to have 10 dimes.  It actually does cost over millions and millions of dimes to make over billions of dollars.  As nothing is truly free in this world.

An article written by Kate S. Rourke with a degree in communications and political science said, “Parents have instead instilled in their children the idea that “entitlement” should have a positive connotation, and that any public assistance programs should be favored and supported, and that “labor” is no longer a term to take pride in, but instead something to reject at all costs. Parents who in their youth happily took odd jobs to provide for their families, have raised children who would rather not work at all then take a job they do not believe is luxurious enough for them, and have no shame in sucking society’s economic pool dry. This never-ending cycle of blame evasion is perpetuating the trend.”  

She continues to say, “Youth refuses to identify the faults in its  process, and those who are able to see that the actions of themselves and their fellow “Generation Y-ers,” only push the blame back onto their parents. While it may very well be true that their parents planted the seed, Generation Y’s inability to take any type of personal accountability and reform their behaviors is the disease that could ultimately cause this generation to implode America (Brown, 1999).”

Isn’t that interesting?

My point is not to take sides here, it is simply to show how Entitlement takes over the minds of many college students and not only that but if their parents have the same attitude chances are they think that way because that is how they were brought up.

In 2013, in a Time Magazine article, Joel Stein writes, “Each country’s millennials are different, but because of globalization, social media, the exporting of Western culture and the speed of change, millennials worldwide are more similar to one another than to older generations within their nations. Even in China, where family history is more important than any individual, the Internet, urbanization and the one-child policy have created a generation as overconfident and self-involved as the Western one. And these aren’t just rich-kid problems: poor millennials have even higher rates of narcissism, materialism and technology addiction in their ghetto-fabulous lives.”

There actually are ways to fix this sense of entitlement that our kids get attached to. According to Today there are ways parents’ can prevent this before it happens, number 1 on the list- is easy to say but hard to do- keep them happy all the time by “Giving kids what they are entitled to: your love and undivided attention every day. I call it Mind, Body and Soul Time and simply spend at least 10 minutes a day individually with each child, on their terms, doing whatever they want to do during that time. Commit to it on a daily basis, and you can watch entitled behaviors melt away. Your kids will stop trying to get your attention in negative ways (like tantrums and negotiating) when they know they’ll get it in positive ways.”

It definitely is sad that parents let their children walk all over them and where everyone on the planet gets a trophy for simply putting on their big boy pants. We have to stop this epidemic where there are no losers in life.  Yes, there are going to be losers and sometimes we will all be one at some point or another but that doesn’t mean we should whine about it when the rest of America is going on about their day.  Everyone is giving into this belief of egalitarianism where everyone is equal no matter their race, or gender is and that everyone deserves the same rights since we are all equal- but this kind of thinking is like a cancer, because this thinking- that in life there are no losers and only winners- once it begins to unravel, it spreads and affects everything.

Kristof, Nicholas. “Profiting From a Child’s Illiteracy.” The New York Times. The New York Times, 08 Dec. 2012. Web. 31 May 2017.

McCready, Amy. “Parents, End the Entitlement Epidemic! These Tips Can Change Behavior.” TODAY Contributor, 17 July 2015. Web. 31 May 2017

Rourke, Kate S. “You Owe Me: Examining a Generation of Entitlement.” Inquiries Journal. Inquiries Journal, 01 Jan. 2011. Web. 31 May 2017.

Stein, Joel. “Millennials: The Me Me Me Generation.” Time. Time, 20 May 2013. Web. 31 May 2017.

Rourke, Kate S. “You Owe Me: Examining a Generation of Entitlement.” Inquiries Journal. Inquiries Journal, 01 Jan. 2011. Web. 31 May 2017.


Types of College professors You Will Have at least Once…

1. The Bad Explainer

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The bad explainer, sometimes you don’t mean to get this professor sometimes you are just SOL and we will have this professor at least once in our college careers.  No matter how much we try to avoid him when we have to take Chemistry or Calculus this professor will sure creep his way into our schedule and make college a living nightmare because we will be studying hard no matter how many times we looked at him and whispered to ourselves HOW DID YOU GET  2a^2b^4q^7?

2. The one with an attitude problem that yells at you for any small mistakes.

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No matter how many times you try to impress this teacher they will always find something wrong by trying to scrutinize and find something wrong with your paper whether you interpreted something differently they won’t care because if it is not told they way they want it to be told then it is wrong and will be marked an F.  Or if you butch a word wrong in German this person will definitely make you aware of it by grueling you incessantly over not putting in time and effort when in reality you have been spending countless nights studying.  So they will constantly hate you for butchering the pronunciations since they will take it as an insult to their life’s work.

3. The Foreign One

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Although she is smart, you don’t understand what he is saying since his accent is heavy and he speaks broken English.  You had no other choice but to take a Biology and a Physics and stumbled upon him and when you tried to switch there was no alternative. But hey you understood about 50% of what she was saying.

4. The Wackadoo Professor Image result for crazy professor

Next thing you know, you get this guy, the nutty professor indeed.  You wonder how he even got his/her degree and how they make the money they do when they have to use the word “thingy” in their definition, a three year old could’ve told me that.  Then they make the classroom into a propaganda mill so they can tell you how to think, what to eat, what you can’t say and force you to bash any straight white males.  Yeah…pretty crazy.  Can kids even get a good education when professors are poisoning young minds?

5. The Passionate Professor

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Yes, thank you to the passionate professors that love their job and helping students improve and look at life differently than before.  The best thing about this professor is they enjoy doing it and have amazing lectures, they don’t sway you to one side, they encourage prudence- the highest virtue which is good judgment or wisdom gained from experience and knowledge, expressed in a realistic and frugal attitude.  Truthfully, you could listen to them talk for hours without getting bored and they not only just blab at you but engage you in the class in different ways to stay awake.  They encourage critical thinking skills by getting you to think out side of the box instead of accepting mainstream thoughts.  At the end of the semester you will thank this professor for making an impact in your life.

6. The Syllabus FreakImage result for the syllabus professor

This professor will mention the syllabus every class period and they could not teach without having it close by or around.  They also carry around a box full of papers that they will hand out in class and mounded with folders of papers to grade and they will lose anything.  If you even ask them when the exam is they will often result to “What does the syllabus say, read your syllabus!” You want to know their name, check the syllabus!

7. The Reader

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He has been teaching for years and he reads verbatim the textbook and powerpoint slides and is very monotone and no matter how many times you are trying to pay attention you can’t help but complain about wonder why the hell you are there?  There is no actual learning process, no analyzing, no explanations, they just keep reading.  Is this what your tuition dollars are going towards? then halfway into the semester you will get the urge to just stay home and read it yourself, and why shouldn’t you?  Is it just me or is education not even worth since the professor suck at their jobs and students leave learning nothing.

8. The Drill Sergeant

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This guy is a classic! He is firm but very intellectually stimulating and uses his own experiences to shape your thoughts.  He tells stories of the military and the importance of small government and you even learn his class learning something everyday that you can apply to your life.  But don’t me wrong when he is mad he will make sure everyone knows it whether it be his students or his colleagues.  He will not take crap from anyone whether someone tries to joke around or not take him seriously.

Happy Mother’s Day to all Mother’s Living and Deceased…



Today we thank our mother’s whether they are living, deceased, or could not make it to this day and for the mothers that lost their child or baby and missed out on raising that child or whatever the circumstance may be.  They will always be a mother in our hearts and to the child they lost! I want to thank all the mother’s out there for all the hard work they do to raise a family and for sacrificing for their families day in and day out.  I want you all to know that we will never forget our mother’s and we will continue to talk to them in prayer.  YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN! This is a hard day for many people and I want to take a few minutes to say a few prayers to let them know that I am thinking of them:

God bless the mother who has lost a part of herself now.  Her child is gone, and yet she knows she must go on somehow.  She’ll never be who she was once, before her child was taken, and some days she can’t help but feel her heart has been forsaken.  They say you give the hardest tasks to those you know are strong.  But her task is so painful, Lord…it’s one that lasts a lifelong.  Please help her rise each time that she falls, give her courage for her fears.  Have angels hover ever near to dry her endless tears.  Keep her close within your arms each moment that they’re apart. Please give her comfort while she grieves…God sooth her aching heart every night before she goes to sleep and when she wakes up each day.

If roses grow in heaven, Lord please pick a bunch for me, place them in my mother’s arms and tell her they’re from me.

Mom, Things I feel most deeply are the hardest things to say, Dearest mom I loved you in a very special way.  If I could have one lifetime wish, one dream that could come true, I’d pray to God with all my heart for yesterday with you.


All loving God we give you thanks and praise for mothers young and old.  We pray for young mothers, who give life and count toes and tend to our every need; May they be blessed with patience and tenderness to care for their families and themselves with great joy.  We pray for our own mothers who have nurtured and cared for us; may they continue to guide in strong and gentle ways.  We remember mothers who are separated from their children because of war, poverty or conflict; May they feel the loving embrace of our God who wipes every tear away.  We pray for women who are not mothers but still love and shape us with motherly care and compassion.  We remember mothers grandmothers, and great-grandmothers who are no longer with us but who live forever in our memory and nourish us with their love.